Are you kidding me?

Hello to all who stop by for a visit! I really hope your world is going just the way you want it! Take time to appreciate and enjoy feeling well if you do feel good today! Don't take those days for granted! Ok! Here we go!

This morning, I am sore from that fall I took yesterday! Aches and pains I didn't count on having this morning! Let me also reach back to late last night when I was trying to fill my prescription for the oxychodone extended release for pain. Originally, that prescription was given to me in CO. Well, HEB here did not want to honor it, so I had dropped it off @ my primary care physician Tuesday so he could rewrite it for me! No problem there - Mark picked up the written prescription that afternoon. Well, by the time we took a nap, got dinner, etc. - we were heading to the 24 hour Walgreens near our home to get that filled about 9pm! I had taken my last oxychodone that evening too! Turns out, they don't have but a few pills, so we were sent across town to the other 24 hour Walgreens, and by now it's almost midnight! Once we get there - the pharmacist says, she can't fill it until they fax my primary care physician a form that he needs to sign. My insurance had approved Dr. Yakes giving me this medicine, but NOT my PCP! Great! I have NO PAIN MEDS! Ok - I thought I could get by with taking the Hydromorphone for breakthrough pain to get me through while I worked, until the pharmacy could get my doctors signature and approval. So ... I went to work, took my "weak pain meds" and proceeded with my day. Lets add the fact that it will rain all day today into the mix! If anyone knows what that means around here - let me spell it out for those of you who don't! H-U-M-I-D-I-T-Y!!!! So the morning is not so bad, my friend Diana had asked me to join her for lunch and Mark would be joining us as well! So, when it's time for us to leave - I knew it was raining and I grabbed my purse and umbrella - completely forgetting my wound care bag! Soon as we stepped out of the building, it felt like a sauna out! The heat and humidity was almost too much! We head to the restaurant, Mark is already there and we place our order. We hadn't been there 10 minutes, when Diana gets all excited and starts pointing to me - right away I suspect the worst! Of course! I'm bleeding! I grab a napkin and put it to my wound area and get Marks attention to help! Of course we know that I left my wound care bag under my desk @ the office! Let's also add that my left ear is hurting and the tube in there is clogged and all I can hear is the muffled sound of my pulse constantly. I know there are people with bigger problems - but this is just something I'm going through right now and I really have no right to complain - but I will anyway because this is my blog! Come on! I have to add some humor, ok?

So, luckily, this is not a major bleed. Diana gets up and finds us more napkins while I'm putting pressure on my face w/one hand and eating enchiladas with the other! Got the bleeding stopped soon enough - finished our lunch and we headed back to the office where Mark redressed the wound area! At this point I'm debating - should I go across town and try and get my pain meds that are finally approved and ready? Oh no - Cyndi thinks she is superwoman and can get by the next few hours just taking another dose of the hydromorphone because I don't want to have to ask my supervisor if I can leave! I don't want my employers to think I'm a hassle because of this avm! So I let another hour go by, and I've taken a Neuontrin thinking I'll be ok! Meanwhile, my hair is a big frizzy mess, so I'm feeling ugly! My co-workers can tell I'm irritable and ask me what is wrong. Bless them for even approaching me in the state I was in! Carlie and Roland laughed when I walked in their area and hissed and made a face over my pain. They are the best - they make me feel better and I appreciate their humor! I really, really, really want to try to hold out and be good and NOT disappoint my supervisor by asking to leave for the day - but I could NOT HOLD OUT ANY LONGER! There was just no way - so ... as soon as my co-worker returned from her lunch hour - I stepped into Mr. Rios office and explained my situation. He is extremely supportive and told me not to worry about what anyone else thinks, and realizes my situation and approved my leaving for the day! He added that after my fall and bleed yesterday, probably 95% of the people would have left if that had happened to them, but I stuck it out! I just wanted Mr. Rios to know that I really tried my best to make it through the day and send him a shout out for being so great about my having to leave! By the time I made it all the way across town to get my meds, I didn't get home until 3:30pm and couldn't take an oxychodone until 5pm! I took a nap when Mark got home and Mark made some wonderful comfort food for dinner! Fried chicken, mashed potatoes and gravy and brussles sprouts! Mark is the only thing that makes me feel good (ok, besides the oxy)! Mark also picks up the slack for me when I'm feeling rotten, like today! When I'm hurting, the last thing I feel like worrying about is cleaning the kitchen or doing anything I absolutely don't have to do! To boot, it's bosses day tomorrow and Mark is making cookies to take to the office! He made choc. chip, oatmeal and peanut butter cookies!

I can't say I'm pain free right now, but hopefully by tomorrow I'll be back on track! It's the worst thing letting my pain get out of control because I couldn't get my meds! The pharmacist said I could have the meds if I paid cash - $184.00! UGH! By the time we got home after trying to get my meds - we didn't get to bed until almost 2 a.m.!

I'm including a photo of my angel Mark that gets me through these rough times! This was taken @ the Mother Cabrini Shrine in Golden, CO! When I get discouraged, Marks got the encouraging words that keep me going! All of you help me get by with your prayers that give me strength and hope! We've come a long way together and have just a little longer to go! Please stay with me on this journey and let us see the end of it successfully together!

Love to all!

Cyndi

Tomorrow is my very last steroid after this procedure! Boo hoo!!! Oh! How could I forget to add this! I went downstairs to get the mail while I was @ work and saw my friend Felice's dad that works in Maintenance. He saw me and came over to ask how I was doing, because he heard about what happened yesterday! Yikes! What on earth is being said? I'm sure I freaked people out with the bloody mess I made after my fall - darn it all! Tomorrow has to be a better day!