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Dulce
From the AVM SURVIVORS web site: "Arteriovenous malformations (AVMs) are defects of the circulatory system that are generally believed to arise during embryonic or fetal development or soon after birth. Although AVMs can develop in many different sites, those located in the brain or spinal cord can have especially widespread effects on the body". I am currently undergoing embolizations with Dr. Wayne Yakes @ the Swedish Medical Center in Englewood, CO every 8 weeks! Our lives are either planning a procedure, having a procedure or recovering from a procedure! The trick lately seems to be to keep the "bleeds" under control! My husband Mark is also my caregiver! He has become an expert wound care therapist, not to mention all around bundle of being just exactly what I need to get through the day and this ordeal we call an AVM! I recently finished 10 years of Embolizations w/Dr. Yakes and am finally ready for my next stage - Debulking and reconstructive surgery w/Dr. Robinson in CO - he is a dentist and plastic surgeon! Best advice to an avm patient - Stay positive and surround yourself with supportive people! Lots of faith, prayer and love are all crucial too!
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November CO Trip 2013

Monday, December 30, 2013

Hi Everyone!
How are you?  Did y'all have a good Thanksgiving?  As always, my sister Celia sets an elegant table with wonderful gourmet recipes for all the side dishes!  Greg fried one turkey and baked another!  Davis was here from California, Mark came in from San Antonio and my co-worker/friend Diana also joined us!  I know she was happy to finally meet Mark and Davis since I talk about them so much!  My family is grateful to Diana for always being there for me when I've had bleeds @ work!  Blood doesn't scare her and she's offered emotional support as well!


Ok, on to all the all the fun I had this past trip to Denver!
This will be my first surgery with Dr. Randy Robinson who is a dentist and plastic surgeon!  My sister Celia started this trip with me, and since it would be a long trip, Mark will finish it with me until we fly home!  We arrive in CO, Nov. 18th & it's 65 degrees!  Got the car rental and headed to hotel to check in! 
Had a late lunch @ Ted's Montana Grill and I was hoping to see my buddy Michelle that is one of the waitresses @ the restaurant!  Wouldn't you know it, the hour she went home was the time we were there!  Celia and I both ordered the bison meatloaf with mashed potatoes and squash on the side!
 


Hey, remember I told you about that t-shirt Jim had made for me? (Actually he got me 2!)  That's what I'm wearing in the photo - it says, "It's an avm - Google it"!  So tired of people staring @ me all the time!

Don't know why Celia and I hadn't thought of this sooner, but I slept in one of the sofa chairs with my feet on the couch @ the hotel!  Worked out much better for me than trying to prop myself up with pillows on their too soft mattress!  We never were able to get Apria to bring over any air humidifier/compressors for my trache, so Celia bought a couple of small humidifies @ Wal-Green's hoping they would help!
So, the next day, Celia and I headed to Dr. Robinsons office for my consultation appt.  This would be my first time meeting his staff, so we were excited about that!
Dr. Robinson has a wonderful, bedside manner.  He hugs, so that's nice!  Super nice man, very intelligent and compassionate.  Told him I was tired of looking like a freak, and he hugged me and said he would be helping me!
We needed to get an updated x-ray of my teeth, so here I am with Randi Valleti, Dr. Robinson's nurse!
After that we headed to Park Meadows Mall and had lunch @ the Cheesecake Factory!  YUM!
I'm trying to do this in a hurry before we have to leave again for CO - more about that in a bit!
So later that day I report to Swedish, and right away, I saw one of the admitting clerks, Darlene and she gave me a big hug!  Went up to Dr. Yakes office to say hello and talked to Becky, one of his patient coordinators for a bit.  I think the other P.A.'s were busy with patients.  I know one of them was out on maternity leave!
After getting all my paperwork in order, headed up to 7 North, the area I usually stay in!  One of the first people to welcome me was Zufan - one of the techs that's been there a while and has taken care of me - she is from Ethiopia.  As I was waiting for my designer gown and things in my room, I was checking my Facebook account and noticed a fellow avm-er had just written that she was arriving in CO!  Wow!  I was super excited to know I may have a chance to meet up with Ashely Stanley from West Texas!  I had been writing to her on Facebook for a bit now and she was having an embolization with Dr. Yakes the following morning!
The nurse told me I would probably be taken to surgery about 6:30 a.m. and Celia said that was too early for her, so she would be seeing me later in the day!  I had asked her to have something ready for me to write with and on in case I couldn't speak after surgery.  Anyway, the time comes and I was transported to ambulatory care.  I asked one of the nurses if Ashley was anywhere nearby - and she was so she came over to where I was laying in bed waiting to get to be taken to surgery.  It was so great meeting her - she is so sweet!  After I got a chance to visit with her, one of the anesthesiologist that had taken care of me before, Wendy, came over to say hello!  I remember before getting the trache I was having a hard time opening my mouth very wide, and Wendy said she had lain awake the night before one of my procedures, worried that she wouldn't be able to intubate me for surgery!  Then the hospital Chaplain came in and we were talking, when Dr. Robinson came in!  He asked what was going on and the Chaplain said we were about to pray, so Dr. Robinson shut the curtain around us and we all held hands and prayed together!  Right after that, Dr. Yakes peeked in to say hello!  Wow, I was thinking I wished Celia were there to take photos!
Here I am shortly after getting out of recovery and meeting Ashley! 
Dr. Robinson also worked on the puffiness under my left eye, so I have an ice pack to help with the swelling!
I've had so much going on, I haven't had time to blog like I normally do and really want to get this out - so I'm popping in lots of photos and may tweak it here and there later!
Isn't it crazy how many hospital bracelets I had on?  Yikes!
See how Dr. Robinson lifted the left side of my lip that used to have some partial paralysis from the embolizations to get rid of the avm?  He said he's lifted it for now and later he'll make it pretty!  Looks better than it used to!

Here I am with my favorite Tech @ Swedish - Alex!  He's a cutie!  I want to bring him home to be my little brother! Ok, I even cropped this and it still came out sideways - sorry!
 
 Meanwhile, while I had been in surgery, it snowed and snowed in Denver!
This is not normal for us to experience this since we live in hot, humid South Texas!Since we were going home a day or so afterwards, Dr. Robinson removed the sutures and unfortunately, due to the tissue in that area not being healthy, they didn't take and my lip started falling apart!
I ended up having to tape my lip all up until I could get back up to CO to see Dr. Robinson 2 weeks later!  If only the sutures had taken, I would have been doing great!  I understand it took Dr. Robinson 3 hours to remove 11 teeth and he did run into some bleeding issues.  I honestly went in to the surgery not knowing whether I would survive it - but Dr. Robinson was able to get the bleeding stopped - I needed 2 units of blood and he cauterized and lasered any capillaries needing it.  Found out later that I received 2 more units of blood - I vaguely remember the nurses coming to check on me and my breathing was very shallow.  They were having a hard time waking me up and I guess with all the meds I was on, I was not happy that they were trying to wake me up and I got my cell phone and called Mark @ the hotel to tell him to tell the nurses to stop it and let me sleep!  I didn't realize it was 5:00 a.m. and Mark said I called him twice!  Thank God these nurses are so excellent!
Ok, I'm posting this and will continue another blog entry after my return trip to CO a couple weeks later!
Here I am with Dr. Robinson in the hospital!
Oh!  Here is a photo of my brother-in-law Jim - he and his wife Shelley take care of our kiddos while we're in CO!  They live out in the country and our furry kids have a blast chasing their cows along the fence line!  Hanz gets along really well with their outside dog Bessie!  As much as I miss my kids while I'm gone, I know they are in the best care with Jim and Shelley!

Ok, everyone - hope you had a great holiday season and not sure when I'll get to blog again, so if I don't talk to you soon - Have a Happy New Year!
Love to all!
Cyndi
 


 

 

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Halloween 2013

Saturday, November 9, 2013

Hi Everyone!  How are you?  As always, I have my good days and bad days - forever trying to keep bleeds under control by keeping my blood pressure under 130/80.  Apparently, anything higher than that, has me bleeding from the capillaries in my gums that I'm hoping Dr. Robinson will start working on in a couple of weeks!  Until then it is physically and emotionally exhausting!  My PCP had me double the dose of Clonodine I take every six hours and while that's working better ... it also knocks me out!  Hard to stay awake @ work since I'm constantly staring @ a computer monitor and exercising my eyes with constant reading!

We're still battling Humana (Marks work insurance), while my work insurance has approved my procedures.  So none of that has changed yet.

Did everyone have a fun Halloween?  I had been wanting to have some costumes made for our furry kids - my sister graciously made time in her very busy schedule to do that for me!  Mark and I chose the fabric and trim and they both already had their crowns - so here's a few photos of when Celia was working on their costumes and the kids once they were all done! I added some sheer, gold lace trim to the ends of Bella's cape!  Mark had found a cabbage patch baby doll on the roof of one of the city buildings and I told him I should have wrapped the baby in a blanket and dressed Hanz and Bella again and they could have gone as William and Kate, Duke and Dutchess of Cambridge and Prince George!

 
 
 
Here is a photo of a great dane named Shadow in the Corpus Christi Dog Group!  Love it!  I've always wanted to find a Frankenstein head costume for Hanz and have Bella be the Bride of Frankenstein - that would be awesome!
 
Mark put this alien mask on and scared Hanz and Bella!  They did not like it @ all and barked @ Mark until he took it off!  He went next door to the neighbors where they sat in the driveway and handed out candy to the Trick or Treaters!
Ok, I tried cropping this photo several times hoping it wouldn't come out sideways, but didn't seem to work!  Oh well.
One of moms good friends put this on her facebook page and I really liked it!  I added a comment that said, "... and don't you forget it!"


Oh, I had mentioned in my last entry how my brother-in-law Jim had been taking a wood carving class with Mark - and here is his completed project!  It is an intricately designed cane that he gave his dad George!  It is impressive with so much detail!  Wish this were a better photo - it doesn't do it justice!
 
  I had hoped to dress up for Halloween in a hard hat and tool belt and say I was "Under Construction"!  Unfortunately, we're not allowed to wear costumes to work and I was home that day anyway, having had a bleed and had my mouth packed in gauze most of the morning. 
 
Here is a great photo of the lovely, fellow former avm-er Shalon Whitgob as Wonder Woman!  She got a co-worker to go along with her to be her Superman friend!  Shalon was a life-saver for me - she helped me see I was not alone in what I was going through, and set my blog up and paved the way as she had her debulking surgery once she was done with her embolizations!  She's the sweetest, inspiring person - full of love and fun and she too has an amazing husband - Joshua that has been right beside her through her avm journey!
 
 
I follow the gang from The Big Bang Theory on Twitter, and Kaley Cuoco posted this photo of kids dressed up like some of their characters on the show!  Leonard, Penny and Sheldon!  Adorable!
 
As always, I like to put a little comedy relief in the midst of too much avm stuff!  Here are some fun things I've found on Facebook!

 
Our favorite subjects - our furry kids!  Here's Bella looking as if to say, "Again with the camera mommy?" It's hard to catch her sitting still, she's usually on the move and my photos of her are a blur!
And our sweet boy Hanz!  He's mommy's angel!  He loves to climb on my lap when I get home from work and sniff me out to see where I've been and what I've been eating!
 
 
 
 
I wanted to post this photo that a fellow Brussels owner posted on her Facebook page!  She lives in northern Massachusetts!  We sure don't see these colors in South Texas!
 My Aunt Elsa is my moms youngest sister, and she was here for a few days visiting from Washington State!  She came to Texas for her High School Reunion and was voted Most Closest to Looking Like She Did in High School and also for coming from furthest away, but I think she declined that one as she had already won one prize!  Aunt Elsa was a big help in getting mom organized and packing some of her things since mom will be moving to a retirement community soon!   Aunt Elsa has always made me feel special and we spent many weekends with our grandparents as we were growing up and we adored spending time with them and Aunt Elsa!
A week or so ago, we had dinner @ the Fossums with special guest Fr. Roche, and we were happy Aunt Elsa was still here!  Fr. Roche is a patient of Greg's and had come in for his appt. earlier that day, and had brought with him a holy relic to bless Greg and his practice.  Greg always asks priests and nuns that come in the office to pray for me, and wanted Fr. Roche to give me a special blessing.  Greg was not sure about the relic's background and called to ask Celia about it sending her a photo on her cell phone.  The relic is of St. Faustina of the Divine Mercy.  Celia was astonished, as she had just been praying that morning for a miracle for me!  My family prays for me through the intercession of Blessed John Paul II - he is responsible for bringing St. Faustina and her mission, to show the world the Image of the Divine Mercy.  He, as pope, brought it to the forefront of the world and was the one who cannonized Sr. Faustina as the first saint of the 21st century!  Those two are very closely linked.  Blessed JP2 established the Divine Mercy Sunday and went to heaven on the vigil of the Divine Mercy Sunday.  Later, Pope Benedict XVI elevated John Paul II to Blessed, on Divine Mercy Sunday, May 1, 2011 - my 50th birthday - and he will be canonized to Sainthood on Divine Mercy Sunday by Pope Francis!  The motto of the image of the Divine Mercy?  "Jesus, I trust in You".  Each of us must make that commitment to trust in Jesus completely, no matter how impossible it might seem.  I especially need this right now with what I'm going through and will be facing as I start my reconstructive surgery in a couple of weeks!!  Were it not for my incredibly supportive family, there is no way we could be doing this on our own!  Here are some photos of that evening!  Here we are with Fr. Ed Roche as I hold the relic and mom holds the certificate of authenticity and prayer!
 
The Holy Relic of of St. Faustina of the Divine Mercy
Here is my brother-in-law Greg, wearing a cowboy had mom gave him that belonged to Vicente - with my husband Mark.
Here we are, mom, me, my sister Celia, my Aunt Elsa and the Fossums dog, Penny!
I have to say after seeing these photos, I am so unhappy with my appearance.  The paralysis on the left side of my face is the result of all the embolizations I had done in order to get rid of the avm.  While Dr. Robinson plans to help make me look as symmetrical as possible, I have no idea what the end result will be - especially because this will be done in stages over the next couple of years and there may be only so much debulking that can be done if a lot of that tissue that needs to be removed is too involved with nerves - don't want to cause any more nerve damage!  I am so ready to have something done - because it's even scarier to not have anything done!  When I've seen nurses and doctors while I've had to be hospitalized locally after a major bleed, that don't even want to go near messing with my avm - I can only be grateful that there are doctors that face the medical challenges with the best of their abilities to help patients that desperately need their help!  I remember thinking this when I first met Dr. Reed that is the head of Voice and Swallow in Denver and he would see me every other visit to check my airways before having an embolization.  He was always honest with me and didn't sugar coat anything - but at least we knew where we stood.  Dr. Reed was very impressive in his knowledge and it didn't hurt that he also was easy on the eyes!  Were it not for these doctors, people like me would be in very big trouble!
I just realized the t-shirt I'm wearing says, Frequent Victim of Brussels Griffon Drama!  So true!
 
In a couple of weeks, Celia and I head out to CO to finally start getting my reconstructive surgery started!  She will be with me during the first five days in CO, then my husband Mark will take over the next five days I am scheduled to be there.  I'll be having a consultation visit with Dr. Robinson, then the surgery in the next day or so and also a follow up visit after the surgery.  Not sure exactly what Dr. Robinson will be doing, but I know he is probably the best doctor possible to help me @ this stage!
I must also tell you that one of the reasons I'm not afraid of having these procedures, is because everyone @ Swedish Medical Center is so fantastic!  Of course Dr. Yakes, his P.A.'s and office staff.  The Admitting staff, gift shop owners and especially the nursing staff, techs, housekeeping ...!  They've always been right there making sure I'm getting the best care possible!  So friendly, that I look forward to seeing them all during my treatments!
 
I always like including some inspirational sayings I've collected when I see them on Facebook!

I have to remind myself on a daily basis sometimes!

 
I can totally relate!
 
 
Alrrrighty then!  I've gone on long enough ... I love to write and express myself and hopefully help other avm-ers as we struggle to heal and lead as normal a life as we can while we deal with this on a daily basis at different levels.  I am very blessed to be surrounded by supportive family and friends that make it possible for me to carry on through this avm journey!
I will keep you posted!  This next trip to Denver will be a major one as Dr. Robinson starts helping me fix several things that all the embolizations left me unable to function normally.  However bad going through these next surgeries is, at least I will finally be on the road to recovery from this ordeal.
Much love to all!  I appreciate all your prayer, love and support!
Cyndi

 
 
 
 
 



 
 

 
 
 
 

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Saturday, October 12, 2013

Greetings Everyone! 

How have you been?  Well, I hadn't blogged in a while, as I've not had much to blog about!  Last you heard, I was "done" with my embolizations and ready to move on to my reconstructive surgery!  That was 10 long years of traveling to Denver to see Dr. Yakes!  I probably had approx. 80 some embolizations!  Unfortunately several delays have prevented my continuing my journey to get rid of this avm - the main one being that Humana (my secondary insurance) doesn't feel it's medically necessary for me to have reconstructive surgery!  What?  What part of my teeth are cracking, my speech and hearing is impaired, my lower lip is busted, I have facial paralysis from embolizations and coils under my chin that still need to be removed during the debulking of the fluids and tissue that would give me more of a normal appearance is Humana not understanding?!  Yikes!  It's not like I'm requesting a cute, turned up nose - I'd just like the one I had before to look like it used to! I'm so tired of people staring @ me like I'm a freak!  Mark and I went to Joanne's Fabrics the other day to look for material to get some Halloween costumes made for Hanz and Bella - I was fed up with stares I was getting, so I loudly yelled, "Quit staring @ me, I'm not that interesting"!  One of my besties suggested I have a t-shirt made that says, "It's an AVM - Google it"!  Or maybe, "Settle down, it's just an AVM"!  Love that idea! Thanks Felice!  I was just telling my brother-in-law Jim about it and he thought it was a great idea, so wants to have the t-shirt made for me!

We've had a sad turn of events in our family!  We've lost my step-father Vicente Morin on September 20th.  What started off as bronchitis, went into pneumonia and he was hospitalized and discovered he also had pulmonary fibrosis.  Put on a respirator as the family gathered around knowing it was only a matter of time. Vicente would have been 82 at the end of this month and he and my mom would be married 15 years in November.  Right around the time of his illness, I was still trying to control my bleeds coming from capillaries in my mouth/gums that I'm waiting for the plastic surgeon to laser and/or resect!  Meanwhile, I constantly have to monitor my blood pressure to keep it from going over 130/80 and that involves taking my regular HBP meds, plus Clonodine to lower it every 6 hours.  My PCP gave me a new med. to take @ bedtime that would be longer lasting so I could try and get some much needed rest and not worry about getting up to take more meds if the six hours were up. Well, the new pill didn't work and I woke up a couple of nights with a bleed or blood clots in my mouth.  Gross I know, but I had to pack my mouth in gauze and missed a couple days work.  Even with my mouth packed, I had more bleeding seeping out of my mouth as I just sat on the couch watching TV.  That was the day of Vicente's rosary that I was not able to attend - afraid of having a bleed in the middle of a large crowd of people.  I still didn't have the bleeds under control to where I could attend the funeral Mass the next day.  I will go to the Veterans Cemetery where Vicente is buried once his marker is put up.  He was always so good to me and I considered him my ally!  May he rest in peace.

 
So the other day I was on Facebook and a fellow avm-er sent me a message asking how I was - said her mom was worried that I hadn't updated my blog and hoped I was ok!  Nice to know someone out there is reading it!  Thanks Ryann and Joanne!  Celia and I met them during one of our trips to Denver!I'm updating this for you!  I appreciate the support!  Ryann is currently taking a break from having embolizations with Dr. Yakes and asked why I didn't do the same.  I don't have that luxury, as right now the main focus is to get my bleeds stopped - not to mention it would be nice to get back to looking more normal and have my life back!
One of the great things about being done with the embolizations is I'm finally off of all the steroids and pain meds!  That makes me a lot nicer person to live with!  My husband Mark has been amazing to put up with me throughout the overwhelming appetite I had with the steroids, not to mention the irritability that came with the pain after procedures. 
Of course my entire family is awesome in helping in any way they can!  My sister Celia is helping me with the Humana battle and we've contacted a patient advocate that will hopefully help with the appeal!  As of now, the earliest I can be seen by Dr. Robinson is Nov. 21st, so a week before Thanksgiving, Celia and I will travel to Denver to start the next series of surgeries in closing out this chapter of my life!  Actually, we're trying to arrange for Celia to go with me on the start of this trip and half way through, Mark will take over and finish the last half of the trip with me!  It's just too much for my sister to be away from her responsibilities, home and family for 10 whole days in a row!  Plus, she's wanting to prepare her home for the Thanksgiving holiday!  We usually gather in their home and she sets a beautiful table with gourmet goodies everyone brings!  Wonder how much of that I'll get to really enjoy this year?  Oh well, there's no one that can do it for me and however bad it gets, it's got to be better than where I am now!
 
Meanwhile, for some comedy relief - saw this cute photo on Facebook and it reminded me so much of my nephew Mark!  We had a heck of a time getting our family wedding group photo after our ceremony in 1992, because each time the photographer was about ready to snap the photo, Mark our ring bearer (5 years old) made a face!  We used to tease my sister that she had an affair with Jim Carrey, because her son is big on that type of comedy quick wit!  Right before walking down the isle with the flower girl (one of my cousins daughters, also about 5 - a doll of Asian/Hispanic ethnicity!), my nephew told someone, "I hope they don't think it's ME getting married"!  Runs in our family actually - we're not well and we know it, so it's ok!  It's the people that don't know it that you have to worry about, right?

Oh!  Here's a cute sign mom found in a shop in a nearby town!  It's rare to find anything here with Brussels stuff on it, so I was happy mom got it for us!  Course our kids are cuter if I do say so myself!
Speaking of Brussels, we have a running joke (what isn't in our house?) that we call our 3 year old Brussels, Bella - "Bel-cro" because she follows Mark everywhere!  Can you tell what this next photo is?  It's Bella peeking under the door because Mark is in the bathroom!  "I know you're in there daddy", "you can run, but you can't hide"! "Let me in, I want to be with you"!
A while back, we got some steps @ the pet store for the kids to be able to get up on our bed.  Unfortunately, they are only 3 steps and now that I sleep on that twin size hospital bed next to our king size bed, Hanz still has a bit of a jump to get up after the third step and has fallen a couple of times!  Can't have that!  So, finally got Mark to make him some steps that will get Hanz up to my bed easier and safely!  For whatever reason, Bella won't go up the steps!  She'd rather go around to the other side of the bed where the old steps are and use those to get up on the king size bed, then she'll hop over to mine!  She does enjoy munching out on the corner of the wooden steps though!  Here's Hanz taking a trial run!
 
 
As I'm sure y'all know by now, we adore our furry kids and they are great therapy for me to @ least temporarily forget about my medical set backs!  We sing to them and just spoil them rotten!  Fun!  Currently working on their Halloween costumes as we take them to Petsmart for a photo op on the 19th of this month!  Course a trip to see Santa will be in order in December!

My brother-in-law Jim came by earlier - he and my husband Mark have been taking some wood carving classes and I'll post a photo soon of some of their work!  Jim's and Shelley were able to come to Vicente's funeral Mass so that really meant a lot to us!

I've been doing fairly well, but recently have been dealing with a bout of bronchitis.  Soooo tired of hacking!  Made a doctor appt. and got a shot and some meds to start getting rid of that!  My PCP prescribed a different pill to take @ bedtime, hoping it would allow me to rest and not worry about getting up @ an odd hour to take a Clonodine.  Nope!  Didn't work!  This is the second time I try to take something else - woke up @ 5 am having a minor bleed from my mouth.  UGH!  To boot, while the Clonodine does work, it dries my mouth so much, so I drink more water, so I need to get up in the middle of the night to use the bathroom - vicious cycle!  Again, what part of this miserable life is Humana not understanding I need to get fixed?  I do have some mouth spray made by Biotene that helps, but ugh!

So our battle of appealing the claim to Humana continues and I absolutely must try and work with my therabite to try and get my mouth open wider so the plastic surgeon and oral surgeon will be able to get some work done in my mouth in November!  Sent a letter to the 7 North nurses station that takes such awesome care of me @ Swedish that I hope to see them soon!  I've never been so well taken care of - they excel @ patient care and have always made me feel special!  Kuddos to them!  Ok, gotta go - guess who's pawing @ me to get off the computer?  Hanz!

Thanks everyone for all your prayer, love and support!  I know I am truly blessed and love my life (except for the avm)!

We have the two cutest furry kids in the world, I enjoy my family, friends and my work - I just want to feel well enough to function properly and enjoy a movie, eat what I want and have a drink once in a while!  I miss that!  With all the meds I'm taking and the bleeds, I can't risk not having all my wits about me (yes, insert joke here)!  I miss the times Mark and I would play card games and drink White Russians!  Mark would always say, "Hey, what about a White German"?  Not well.

Went to the library earlier to return some books and pick up a few more. 
Here's my current read - we grew up watching and enjoying The Flip Wilson Show! Have given my Nook a break, and lately the free Friday books offered on the Barnes & Noble Nook blog aren't that great, but I look forward to some good books coming out soon!  I almost sure one of my favorite authors P.C. Cast has a book coming out soon, as does another author Celia and I enjoy - Diana Gabaldon that has the Highlander time travel series of books!  My stamp table has too much junk on it that I haven't felt up to cleaning the clutter to stamp out a card.... I'd love to do one of my work in progress counted cross stitch, but don't want to risk having a bleed on the fabric.  :(  Soon I hope to resume that hobby!  Ok, enough of all that!  Anyone seen the movie GRAVITY  yet?  I'd love to see it, but just not up for it - would probably fall asleep if I sit still too long.Take care everyone!  Much love and hugs to all!
I may tweak this entry again and I hope to keep updating it with some good news soon!

Cyndi
P.S. Saw this on Facebook and wanted to share!
Heading off to bed where I'll usually pop in a dvd of my favorite show or one of my favorite Twilight Saga movies!
 
 

 
 

 
 

Posted by Dulce at 5:26 PM 0 comments  

Yikes!

Saturday, July 13, 2013

Well, heck!  We are currently without firewalls on our computer - hope to get them back up by Friday - so if you see any ads on my blog - esp. with Obama on it - it was not my doing!  Eeeeeek!  I can't seem to even get into the previous blog entry to edit it, so we'll see what happens!

Posted by Dulce at 2:14 PM 0 comments  

Fear of sneezing.

Hi again!  How is everyone?  Hope you are well and doing all the things you enjoy!  I'm going to try and blog a bit while the rest of the household is asleep!  Especially Hanz - he really doesn't like me sitting @ the computer when I could be paying attention to him!
As you know, I've been having bleeding issues lately - apparently even though I'm "done" seeing Dr. Yakes, I still have tiny capillaries that need to be cauterized or resect by the doctor who will be doing the next stage of my surgeries!  We have been trying for several months to get all my paperwork in order so I can get scheduled to begin this next round of surgeries, but it's been one thing after the other that hasn't gotten us there yet.  Unfortunately for me, that means I'm still having bleeding issues!  The worst is not knowing when these bleeds will happen - I just had that one July 3 and it was bad enough that I immediately went in to get a blood count to see if I needed a transfusion.  I should have gone ahead and gotten it, even though I was @ a decent level.
Wed., July 10th I had gone in to work, and couldn't decide what to do for lunch.  I went to the Wal-Mart near work and was looking around, when I felt a sneeze coming on.  I dread sneezing, because many times that triggers a bleed. (Although there are times bleeding can start when I'm sitting still)  Sure enough, after sneezing I touched my chin and had blood on my hand.  I wasn't too far from the ladies room toward the back of the store, so I made my way there as soon as I could.  I barely got in and could already feel blood coagulating in my mouth. Made me want to gag and I leaned over the sink to spit it out!  A lady was in one of the stalls and when she came out she washed her hands and hadn't really glanced over to what was going on w/me in the sink next to her.  When she did, she asked if I needed help.  I told her I had already called my husband, but she said she really wanted to call 911.  She walked out and I guess got a Wal-Mart employee - she was a manager and agreed that they would call 911.  Mark had just sat down to have lunch w/his brother Jim @ a barbeque place when I called - but he got to me very quickly!  The first lady kept handing me paper towels as I leaned over the sink bleeding all over the place.  I kept trying to rinse my mouth by cupping water in my hand.  Meanwhile gobs of coagulated blood were clogging the sink, and I would try and grab a handful of paper towels to throw it out, but that would make me gag!  The one lady asked if I needed a chair and I said yes.  I thanked her for helping and wondered how all the blood wasn't freaking her out!  Between the first lady and the manager, they were trying to help with blood everywhere!  Mark arrived and asked if I had any gauze - I usually pack my mouth with it to try and stop the bleeding.  Told him there was some in the car, so he ran out to get it and finally seemed to get it under control.  It seemed to be coming from way in the back of my lower left molars.  It kept coagulating, but I would pull that because it was gagging me and the bleeding would continue!  Somewhere along that time, the EMT's arrived and started trying to help.  I had sat down on the chair by this time, but still leaned over the sink bleeding.  I was feeling light headed and apparently passed out!  Mark heard one of the ladies say she thought I wasn't breathing - so he removed my trache cap!  I think @ this point the EMT's had cut my kerchief off, as it was in the way and all bloody.  I wear it over my trache to keep dirt out, so a lot of people aren't aware I even have it.  That's unfortunate, because of what happened with all the bleeding!  Thank God Mark thought to pull my trache cap - he saved my life!  I started breathing again and the EMT's started an IV by putting a needle on the back of my right hand.  Too bad my mediport wasn't accessed, they could have used that.  I do not like going to the hospital, especially here locally, but had no other choice with the way I was feeling.  Got put in the ambulance and headed to the hospital, with Mark following in his car.  He notified my family and they all met us in the hospital emergency room. 
Right away I was put in one of the rooms in Emergency, and one of the nurses helped take off my clothes that were soaked in blood.  She cleaned my hands that of course were also all bloody.  My mouth is packed in gauze and I'm thirsty and can't have anything to drink.  Or at least I don't want to because I don't know what's going on in my mouth until I would be able to pull the gauze out and rinse.  Course no one wants me to do that yet.  My primary care physician Dr. Boynton is notified and arrives soon.  My family asks him when I can remove the gauze and he said to wait @ least 4 hours.  It's freezing in the ER, my sister Celia is calling up to CO to ask what the hold up has been to get me in for my next appt.  We need this bleeding stopped completely!  My brother-in-law Jim peeked in @ one time - I waved a greeting.  There was only 2 people allowed to be w/me, so family was taking turns.  At one point, Celia looked out of the ER room and there was no one around.  Seems there was a major emergency, and all staff was trying to help!  I can understand that and waited patiently.  I probably got to the ER about 1pm and wasn't taken to a room until 7pm or so.  I was admitted to ICU because my doctor said that way I would have better care in case I had any bleeding issues.  We sent mom home and Celia stayed with me while Mark went home to get a few of my things and checked on the kids (Hanz and Bella).
I kept wanting to remove the gauze from my mouth and rinse so I could have something to drink.  All I had all day was a couple of pop-tarts and some coffee while @ work!  Mark had to go to my work and get my purse (I had put my license and debit card in my pants pocket) and my "what if" bag that had medical supplies!
The nurse on duty wanted to call my doctor to be present when I removed the gauze.  I told him that wasn't necessary - but did wait until Mark came back.  He knows best how to help me with everything I need!  By the time I was able to remove the gauze in my mouth it was almost 8pm!  I knew from a previous visit that there is a thing that is like a stick w/a sponge @ the end that I could clean my mouth up with, so I asked for that.  Of course I was given a liquid diet.  The only thing I wanted was the teeny cup of apple juice.  I know, if I'm complaining I couldn't be feeling that bad - but when you are feeling that bad, it really sucks when you can't even feel better by getting anything decent!  Mark insisted I try the chicken broth - gross!  Got a popsicle that I told him to eat because I can't open my mouth wide enough to eat that - and orange jello.  Ugh.
I kept asking for someone to access my mediport and no one wanted to go there.  Meanwhile I am hooked up to all these wires w/a heart monitor and a blood pressure cuff on the left arm.  The nurse puts those darned hose on my legs that are hooked up to more wires for circulation.  They tell me, "try to get some rest".  Connected to all those wires and guess what?  I have to go to the bathroom.  Celia had asked me when she was there earlier where the bathroom for the room was.  I pointed to the toilet chair.  Are we having fun yet? 
Someone from the lab came by to draw blood - ironic, huh?  Mark was still with me and again asked the nurse to access my mediport.  Finally they found someone to do this and I know I'm complaining, but OUCH!  This nurse did not know what she was doing - the last time my mediport was accessed in CO - I think it was nurse Jason and I barely felt it at all!  Soon after this I had asked Mark to go home to be with the kids.  Don't like them being home alone so long.  I have to show you my baby Hanz sitting in my spot on the couch, keeping it warm for mommy!  That's one of the hard things about going to CO or having a hospital stay here - being away from my babies!

Then later, he kept my bed warm - so precious!
Of course Bella was nearby on the king size bed! "Where's mommy"?
In case you don't know by now, my kiddos are pretty special to us!  So Mark's gone and I decide to watch tv.  I don't even have the strength or will to even read my Nook.  I am freezing and asked for an extra blanket several times and never got it. 
I was given 4 units of blood through the night and first thing in the morning, Dr. Boynton came in to see me.  I asked if I could go home and he said no problem, he would write up my orders for release!  Yay!  Got home about 10 a.m. - Hanz and Bella were so happy to see me!  Got settled in and communicated a little bit on Facebook to let friends and family know the latest.  I didn't want to spend any time on the computer that I could be enjoying Hanz and Bella!  Mark as always is amazing!  Right away, he fixed me a bowl of grits - nice to have something warm in my stomach!  For lunch I asked him for a baked potato, with shredded cheese and sour cream!  Normally, I would have tried to go in to work the following day, but I really was feeling weak and needed to regain my strength!  Mark had spoken to my supervisor right after the bleeding incident and had no problems there.  My supervisor Kathleen is awesome!  I texted her later to tell her I would probably wait until Monday to come in and she answered to take more time if needed.  I'm glad this bleeding didn't happen @ work!  Mark said he hugged the two ladies that helped me after the EMT's took me on the gurney.  We'll go back after a while so I can thank them personally.  I have been blessed to be surrounded by angels all the time!  Can you imagine if I had been in that bathroom alone and had passed out?  Well, enough for now - I'm signing off to go check on my kiddos!  I'm sure as always I'll tweak this here and there and add info or photos, but just wanted to post this so everyone could know the latest.  For now, I have a tentative appt. to see Dr. Robinson (plastic surgeon) in CO on Sept. 11th, but we're trying to get something sooner!
Thanks for all your love, prayer and support!
Cyndi
 

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